10 Things

As I grow increasingly uncomfortable and stressed out in these last weeks of pregnancy I've realized that I need something to actively take me away from the many complaints I want to make. It's difficult to stay positive and optimistic when everything I do hurts, or when I can't sleep at night because all I can think about is how I want to hear something back on one of Jason's many job applications... See? There I go.

When I was younger and journal writing was something that everyone was pushing as the only way to record your life's history, I often remember feeling like I had nothing to write about. It was true most of the time; the life of a bookworm teenager usually isn't all that interesting. To help, my mom would tell us to write five things we were grateful for as our entry for the day. I'm sure my lists weren't all enlightening. I distinctly remember writing several times that I was grateful for my bed... or for tennis (my high school sport of choice). I'm going to take this a step further and begin writing down 10 positive things about a specific aspect of my life. I think it will help me to remember how blessed I truly am and force myself to analyze things a little differently. For the debut: my husband.

Jason:

1. He is comfortable being a dad. He can do everything for Troy that I can do. A lot of times he can do it better.
2. He lets me be me. He hasn't tried to "change" me to be what he wants, though I'm sure we've both changed just a little since our wedding day. If he has tried to change me, he's done it most excellently, as I haven't noticed a thing. 
3. He is a very hard worker. His norm is to give 110% at work all the time. In addition, he very often takes on overtime work to make extra money to provide more for our family. He has built positive relationships with his superiors and co-workers that will (hopefully, fingers crossed) result in a better career position for him soon.
4. I love that he wants to do the handy work and heavy lifting for me. I'm a pretty independent person, but have recently started to take a step back and let him do things for me.
5. I appreciate that he doesn't have any "vices" that take him away from important things. I consider myself a pretty easy-going wife and I let him do pretty much whatever he wants, but he is very considerate when it comes to his man time. He never plays video games if there's something to be done or if there's something we can do together instead. He doesn't do guys' nights hardly at all, and he always asks me what plans are for the evening so he can plan his workouts/errands/whatever accordingly.
6. Bright blue eyes.
7. Since Troy was born he's taken a turn for the awesome with his health. He made the choice to lose weight, practice better eating habits, and exercise regularly. I'm glad he made this choice for himself and proud of the success he's had.
8. He used to request that I make his favorite meatballs for dinner-- now he makes them better than I do.
9. He's gone from wanting to live his entire life in one town to being open to the idea of moving away. I grew up traveling and loved it, and am happy that he's willing to try something new and exciting. There are lots of fun adventures to be had.
10. He talks to me as his equal. We hold conversations about everything from politics to personal dreams to work to celebrity gossip. When we get on a kick we can go for hours. We agree and disagree about things without putting each other down and learn more about each other every time.

Was that 10 already?! I'm a lucky girl.